So here I am again in the airport heading back to SF to shoot a scene for Titan. It’s for their upcoming big IML release so I am totally excited. It will showcase my many talents, especially those as a fisting top. It’s nice to be getting back to my roots after a year of mostly vanilla porn. What can I say; I’m a pig at heart.

I already filmed one scene for this film where I double fisted this 28-year-old boy from Amsterdam. Hot and sweet, and nasty, my favorite combination. The scene I’m about to shoot will be more diverse. Fisting, leather, flogging, fucking, all the good stuff. It should be a fun shoot.

So life lately has been a bit overwhelming. I don’t really know how to relax very well. I’m the kind of guy that is always multi-tasking. I work on the computer while watching TV. I listen to audiotapes while driving. I rarely go to the movies because I feel guilty about spending 2 hours not being productive. It’s not healthy and I realize that. However my mind is constantly working and I feel driven to keep doing more. Hopefully 2007 will be my most productive year yet, but also the year I learn to relax. At least a bit.

I’m thinking about a few business ventures I want to start exploring. I keep toying with the idea of doing my own pay site, but I feel like every other porn star is doing that, and I want to do something different. If you guys have some ideas of what you would like to see, feel free to send them my way. I mean, sure, I guess I can make a site with me having sex with all types of guys, but that’s what everyone else is doing. I’m sure I’ll think of something…just wait and see.

Now for something completely different. I have recently been involved in this love triangle, which recently resolved itself in the most interesting way. To make a long story short, I was dating a boy (Nate), who was also dating another guy (Jay). Now, if it were that simple then there would be no issue, but it turns out that I know Jay, and see him frequently, not to mention he lives only a few streets over from me. Well, after about 2 months of this, things came to a head a few weeks ago. There was a big fight, lots of hurt feelings, and it was just one big mess. Nate stopped talking to both Jay and me and said he wouldn’t contact us until he got home from a trip to see his family. Well, in the 10 days that he was gone, Jay and I met up, and one thing led to another and, well, what can I say, we’re gay men. Now, this wasn’t the first time Jay and I had sex, we just had never pursued it beyond sex. Well, during the time Nate was gone, Jay and I began to chat, and met up a few times to discuss things. We came up with an idea and so when Nate came home, we all went out to dinner. After a long talk, we have since decided to try a three-way relationship. A 'throuple' as they are sometimes called.

It’s been 2 weeks since we started our 3some, and I have to say, it has been amazing. It has been so easy and natural. Instead of being jealous or envious, I am more at ease in the 3some than I was in the previous arrangement. My relationship with Jay is continuing to grow, and it feels right. Now, a lot of our friends have been cautioning us, but you know, how many 2-person relationships do you know that are successful? The way I see it, we have no worse odds than others. Anyway, I’ll keep you updated on what happens.

Next weekend I come back to SF for the GAYVNs, or for those who don’t know, the Gay Video Awards. It’ll be my first time attending and I cant wait. It is sure to be quite a scene. I will undoubtedly have some interesting tidbits to share when I return. ‘Til then.,..