Back again after a long hiatus......living life

So it’s been nearly 5 months since I last wrote, and I first would like to apologize to my fans and readers. It’s been a challenging few months. Without going into too many details I’ve really been struggling with life in Los Angeles. I’m finding it a very lonely place and difficult to make friends. People might think NYC, where I come from, is an unfriendly place, but that couldn’t be further from the truth. Maybe it’s because I grew up there, but making and keeping friends in LA is much much harder than in NY. Who knows, maybe it’s me.

When I last wrote I was debating whether or not to stop making videos. Well, looks like I’ll be shooting one in March, possibly two, so assuming that happens, I guess I haven’t retired yet. But it’ll be my first videos in several months and all because they contacted me. I haven’t really been putting myself out there.

So what’s happened in the last few months. I got my heart broken (only a slight exaggeration), I turned 34, and I’ve learned bad habits are hard to break. .

Regarding the broken heart. I met this guy in the beginning of December and very quickly I was there nearly every night. I spent the holidays house sitting for him (I only knew him 2 weeks at this point). He is tall dark and handsome. And when I say handsome I mean movie star handsome. Unfortunately, and I wont go into specifics, a few weeks after he returned things quickly went downhill. It’s actually a sad story, and one I cant really go into, but suffice it to say that he’s a truly wonderful man, but we had some serious problems that were beyond my control or help. It really did break my heart, even if I hadn’t fallen completely in love. (note I say completely, I had begun to fall).

The week after we broke up I turned 34. My age doesn’t bother me, most of the time. I know I judge myself to harshly but I constantly compare myself to friends, acquantainces, or my own skewed image of where I thought my life would be. And while I like my life for the most part, I cant help but feel that I’m not living up to my potential. Whatever that means.

Anyway, since I started this blog a week ago, things have picked up and life has changed even more. I am moving to a new apt, still here in Los Angeles but now I’ll be on my own again. No more roommate. Hopefully the next roommate I have will be a bf. If at all.

I also booked a trip to NYC for work (day job) and will be there a week in mid-March. Once I get back I might have to go to Vegas to do a video the following weekend, and then, that next week, on April 3rd, I go to Australia for 2 weeks. This is the first truly long vacation I’ve ever had in my adult life. I’ve never taken 2 weeks away. And I’ve never gone that far. I’m excited and nervous and impatient til it’s time to go. I’ll try and remember to take some pictures to post.

That’s pretty much the news about me for the past few months. Oh, and the bad habits, let’s just say spending time online isn’t always a productive use of one’s time. Friends might be hard to find in LA, but sex, well that’s easy. Like me.

Til next time. All my best.

Adam Faust

I just finished a 10 day trip away from home. I’ve been to Las Vegas, Chicago, and then New York City. I’m finally heading home to LA and I am very happy about that. The trip was good, but it’s even nicer to be going home.

There have been a lot of things on my mind lately. I just shot a video for Hot House and another one for Jett Black, but despite that I’ve been debating about possibly ‘retiring’ at the end of this year. In some ways, I’m just now starting to get known. But in others, I’m wondering if it’s taking a toll on my life. Everything I’ve done has been a choice that I’ve made, but I’m starting to think that it may be time to move towards something else.

Now, for those of you who don’t know, I do have a daytime job which I truly enjoy. I do marketing, something I’ve done for years, long before porn, and which I am not only good at but I have my MBA in marketing. Now that doesn’t mean I need to, or even want to, stay in that field forever, but for the near future it’s what I plan to do. The porn has been fun much of the time, but at the same time, I think its limited me in some ways, particularly in finding a relationship.

I have to be frank, many guys love the idea of fucking a pornstar but many couldn’t imagine dating one. We’re not ‘mother friendly’ so to speak. And while there are those who might consider ‘dating’ a pornstar for a while, the reality is that many guys, even those that are comfortable with it being something in your past, don’t necessarily want someone who is actively doing porn. Now I could argue that it’s just work, which it is, but that doesn’t change the way someone feels. So unless I want to date someone else in porn, my options seem someone limited. I would certainly consider dating someone in porn, but with such a small group of people out there who do that, it’s much harder to come by. And unless they have someone else going on for themselves, I also find I have little in common with them. So, for all those reasons, and more, I feel like my side job is preventing me from having a full-on relationship. Add into the mix that I travel a lot and meeting people becomes another big issue. It’s hard to meet and date someone when you’re gone 2-3 weekends out of the month.

For those of you who care, done worry, I haven’t decided to give it all up yet, but it’s definitely been on my mind a lot, and I’m sure will be for some time. I have several trips planned in the next few weeks, so nothing is likely to change anytime soon, but if you know of someone hot and porn friendly….pass him my way. ;)

So, yes, you guessed it, I’m back in the airport waiting to fly back to Los Angeles. I just spent the night and day in San Jose where I volunteered at a local AIDS charity fundraiser. It was an underwear and leather fashion show.

In addition to myself there was also Tober Brandt and Bo Dixon, both very sexy guys. I’ve known Tober for a while and he’s always been a sweet man with a devilish smile. And Bo is just one huge hunk of a man, and also nice as can be. I’m not small but between the two of them I felt like a mini-me version of a porn star. They each must weigh in well over 200lbs. And my solid 170, while nothing to shirk off, is still at least 30 lbs less. Bo himself probably weights 230. So you’re talking about 60lbs more than me. But boy does he wear it well. Yum.

This week will be a short one for me as I head back up to San Francisco on Wednesday to do a shoot for Hot House. Work will be busy and I’ll be working my day job thru Wednesday, and then fly that night off to SF. I’ll be staying through the weekend for Dore Alley, so that should be fun. All in all, a very busy week.

I think my plane, which is now over 30 mins late will start boarding soon, so I’m going to cut this short. Hope to write again soon, with more stories to tell. Hope everyone is enjoying their summer. I know I am. J

Adam

Well I’m back on a plane going back to LA. There is a lot of turbulence so hopefully you’ll get to read this. J

Anyway, I’ve been really bad about maintaining my blog and I apologize. I had started writing one on my way home from IML but never got to finish it. My problem is that I one, have very little time, and two, that I always want to be really in-depth and detailed about what has happened, as well as make it somewhat interesting and amusing if possible. So, they end up taking a while to write and unless I feel like I have a good chunk of time to write, I don’t. I will do my best to improve that, so hopefully you’ll see more blogs, but maybe not quite as long or as detailed.

I’m flying back from Fort Lauderdale where I just spent the weekend. I know, talk about a long trip for just 2 days. But I had an old ticket I needed to use before it expired and Rentboy.com was having a pool party so I got a room for free at a local guesthouse. Overall the trip was nice if relatively uneventful. I got to meet a lot of hot boys, including one strapping guy from Tampa who’s done work for Steel Mill Media, a company I’ve also been in talks with. They specialize in bondage films. I wont tell you the boy’s name because I’m not sure of what his stage name is and don’t want to reveal something I shouldn’t, but let’s just say I helped him out during his photo shoot and before he left I got a chance to fuck the hell out of him in one of the rooms as he was getting ready to leave. It was hot, trust me. :)

The next few weeks will be busy ones for me. I go to San Jose next weekend, then back to San Francisco that following Wednesday the 25th to shoot a video for Hot House. I’ll be staying in SF through the weekend for Dore Alley, so that should be fun as well. In August I’ll be in Chicago and NYC, and that’s just what I know for now. Things could easily change and be added.

I’ll try and post a blog or two over the next 2 weeks as I go about my travels.

And thanks for everyone who writes and says hello or comments on my blog. I apologize if I don’t respond to everyone. I barely have time to read them, so forgive me if my responses are a bit delayed. But keep them coming. J

Hope this finds everyone well and happy.

Adam Faust

So I havent written a blog in months, so I’m way behind. I apologize in advance for the short nature of this blog, but I want to get everyone up to date so I can start fresh after this posting. So…since you last heard from me.

March
Was scheduled to go to the black party and also film for Dark Alley Media
My grandfather died (96 so it’s okay) the day before I was supposed to fly to NYC.
Since the funeral was happening the same weekend as the Black Party, I flew in on Thursday night, went to the funeral on Friday afternoon, then went and shot a fisting video for Dark Alley that night.
The next day I did another scene for Dark Alley, and that night I performed at the Black Party.
I then flew back to LA Monday morning at 6am and went right to work from the airport.
While I was away, my two bf’s broke up with each other, so I was now dating only 1.

April
Did a film for Hard Heroes – part of Can Am entertainment
Went to San Francisco and did a photo shoot for the Magnitude ads - the party the night before Folsom Street Fair.
BF and I broke up.
Since again.

May
Busy with my day job.
Right now, sitting in LAX, again, this time to fly to Milwaukee to appear at BOOM on Satruday night (19th).
Next week I am off to Chicago for IML – my best friend Travis Creston is competing for the title and I have a big release coming out from Titan. (Folsom Leather)

Whew….so now you are all up-to-date and I am gonna sign off. Sorry it wasn’t too witty. I’ll try for that when I fly back on Sunday from Milwaukee. Hopefully I’ll have a few raunchy stories to share.

Best,
Adam Faust

So here I am again in the airport heading back to SF to shoot a scene for Titan. It’s for their upcoming big IML release so I am totally excited. It will showcase my many talents, especially those as a fisting top. It’s nice to be getting back to my roots after a year of mostly vanilla porn. What can I say; I’m a pig at heart.

I already filmed one scene for this film where I double fisted this 28-year-old boy from Amsterdam. Hot and sweet, and nasty, my favorite combination. The scene I’m about to shoot will be more diverse. Fisting, leather, flogging, fucking, all the good stuff. It should be a fun shoot.

So life lately has been a bit overwhelming. I don’t really know how to relax very well. I’m the kind of guy that is always multi-tasking. I work on the computer while watching TV. I listen to audiotapes while driving. I rarely go to the movies because I feel guilty about spending 2 hours not being productive. It’s not healthy and I realize that. However my mind is constantly working and I feel driven to keep doing more. Hopefully 2007 will be my most productive year yet, but also the year I learn to relax. At least a bit.

I’m thinking about a few business ventures I want to start exploring. I keep toying with the idea of doing my own pay site, but I feel like every other porn star is doing that, and I want to do something different. If you guys have some ideas of what you would like to see, feel free to send them my way. I mean, sure, I guess I can make a site with me having sex with all types of guys, but that’s what everyone else is doing. I’m sure I’ll think of something…just wait and see.

Now for something completely different. I have recently been involved in this love triangle, which recently resolved itself in the most interesting way. To make a long story short, I was dating a boy (Nate), who was also dating another guy (Jay). Now, if it were that simple then there would be no issue, but it turns out that I know Jay, and see him frequently, not to mention he lives only a few streets over from me. Well, after about 2 months of this, things came to a head a few weeks ago. There was a big fight, lots of hurt feelings, and it was just one big mess. Nate stopped talking to both Jay and me and said he wouldn’t contact us until he got home from a trip to see his family. Well, in the 10 days that he was gone, Jay and I met up, and one thing led to another and, well, what can I say, we’re gay men. Now, this wasn’t the first time Jay and I had sex, we just had never pursued it beyond sex. Well, during the time Nate was gone, Jay and I began to chat, and met up a few times to discuss things. We came up with an idea and so when Nate came home, we all went out to dinner. After a long talk, we have since decided to try a three-way relationship. A 'throuple' as they are sometimes called.

It’s been 2 weeks since we started our 3some, and I have to say, it has been amazing. It has been so easy and natural. Instead of being jealous or envious, I am more at ease in the 3some than I was in the previous arrangement. My relationship with Jay is continuing to grow, and it feels right. Now, a lot of our friends have been cautioning us, but you know, how many 2-person relationships do you know that are successful? The way I see it, we have no worse odds than others. Anyway, I’ll keep you updated on what happens.

Next weekend I come back to SF for the GAYVNs, or for those who don’t know, the Gay Video Awards. It’ll be my first time attending and I cant wait. It is sure to be quite a scene. I will undoubtedly have some interesting tidbits to share when I return. ‘Til then.,..

A REAL WORKING BOY

So it's been a few weeks since I've written last. It's been a really busy few weeks and I've been too exhausted to take the time and write. I guess I could just write a few words, but I feel like if I..m going to take the time to write, I should at least make a good effort at it.Anyway, the last time I wrote I had just flown back from NYC and attending the 1st Annual Escort Awards, where I won for Best Fetish Escort. You can read my last blog to find out a bit more about it on my website atwww.AdamFaust.com, or at my myspace profile,
www.myspace.com/adamfaustxxx .

Upon my return I was immediately 'back to work' so to speak. I had a day to rest and then I shot a scene for Rascal Video with Johnny Hazzard. I have to say, Johnny is one of the nicest guys to work with, and I had a total blast. Not only is he totally adorable, but he's also a pretty interesting guy and we chatted about a lot of stuff not related to 'the biz.' He loved my tattoos and has even asked me to design his next one. Which I am. I'm almost done with it, so before long there might be a piece of me on Johnny. (There was already a piece of me in him, and vice versa, but you'll have to buy the video to see that)

So that was on a Thursday. That night we hung out with Tyler Riggz and a few other porn stars at Cocktails with the Stars at Mickey's in WeHo. I had a few days to rest until Saturday when I had to drive down to San Diego to shoot another film. This time I did my scene with Brad Benton. I must admit, that I watch so little porn that I had no idea how big of a star Brad was until after we met. Ultimately that kinda stuff doesn’t matter to me. What does matter is what the person is really like, and I must say he too is a total sweetheart. I know there are jerks in porn, and I’ve met a few, but mostly the guys are nice goodhearted folk.

I had a few days to rest until Saturday when I had to drive down to San Diego to shoot another film. This time I did my scene with Brad Benton. I must admit, that I watch so little porn that I had no idea how big of a star Brad was until after we met. Ultimately that kinda stuff doesn..t matter to me. What does matter is what the person is really like, and I must say he too is a total sweetheart. I know there are jerks in porn, and I..ve met a few, but mostly the guys are nice goodhearted folk.

After shoot our scene on Sunday, Brad and I drove back to LA. I got a good nights rest and woke up bright and early to start my first day at my new job. Yes, a real, full-time, 9-5 (or 8-5) job, Mon-Friday. I now wake up at 5am (yes, 5am), go to the gym, work out, and head off to work to get there by 8. Work a full day then back home. But don..t think I..m giving up my career in porn. I might be a working boy now, but no reason I can still work it.

Case in point, I shot another video last weekend, also for Channel 1. And I must say this was a HOT scene. I was paired up with this totally hot guy who goes by Steve Carlisle. He hasn..t done much, but I think you'll be seeing a lot more of him. Anyway, to cut to the chase, I fucked him, plugged a huge toy up his hole, shoved a chain up his ass, and then finished it off by fisting him on the hood of an SUV. The movie is going to be called 'Depraved' and man was it fun!The next day I woke up early as usual, went to the gym then work as usual, and went about my day just like everyone else. I feel like a kind of sexual superhero. Mild mannered office worker by day, fisting sex fiend by night. Wherever there is emptiness and darkness, Adam is there to lend a hand (or other body part), to fill the need. I'm just that kind of guy. :)

Be well and be happy.

Adam